It’s my birthday.. we’re gonna party like it’s my birthday!

another year older.. i am 27! yes i know i am not getting any younger!

this is i prayed to be a happy one. so far so good…
i received flowers from colleagues, chocolates and they took me to lunch…
how great is that?! it’s so good to be loved.

for the first time, i received so many sms.. overseas mostly..
even emails flooded in my inbox.

it is great indeed… and the day is not over yet.

i work my red shoes as promised..

for those who sent me warm wishes, thank you very much!

ps.
the photo above is my cake that i shared with everyone at work.
i don’t have the best camera phone.. but hey, i tried

yes, I have found a lump on my left breast that concerns me a lot. The good thing abou it is that it grew outside and i can visibly see it. well, the fact that i can see it, i know that it can be taken off..

i don’t feel threatened because i can see it…

somehow, it is my fault… i have waited this long before going to a doctor to have it checked..
The thing is it didn’t bother me when i spotted it.. it bothered me a bit but since it doesn’t hurt at that time I_THOUGHT it will just go away.

unfortunately, it didn’t

now it has been giving me some pain and discomfort.

I am yet to meet a doctor (GP) today and see if she can help me.. if not then she will have to refer me to a breast specialist which i already have a booking..

You don’t understand how in-demand this doctor is.. so i did my homework, booked early just in case my GP can’t help me.. the last thing i want is waiting for my turn to be looked at.

i know it’s too early to tell if it’s cancer.. i don’t want to assume as well because there’s no point worrying now..

Once i know what it is then you will too.

I am writing about this to remind me not to ignore anything like this ever again.
To always remember that Early detection save lives.

So let’s cross our fingers and hope that this is nothing..
i know it’s nothing..

May this be a note to every one.. for you ladies who have notice anything in your breast region up to your under arm area, GO see a doctor straight away. Even if it doesn’t hurt you or is not giving you discomfort, you have to get it checked.

Breast cancer research is doing so good that in 10 years they might have the cure for it or know how to detect it at the earliest time possible.

i was raised to basically do house chores…hehehehe

you see, I was the eldest and the only one old enough to help out my mum or my aunties on house chores.

i think it’s great because at least i know i will survive living on my own. i can cook, clean, do the laundry, iron, food shopping..  gardening maybe not but you get the picture.

we used to get help around the house when i was young but that didn’t stop my mum from teaching me do things which to tell you started some small fights between us… i was a kid.. can’t blame me.

i must admit that there was a time that i was really lazy and decided not to help out. like i know how to do it but because i know someone is paid to do it, i got this thinking that “i don’t have to do it”.. then again, i was kid, can’t blame me.

now i don’t have that someone-paid to do everything for me or my mum to help me out so it tends to get a bit over whelming at times when i have so much to do.

last night i realised that i am doing almost everything for everybody and i am losing precious time of Sheryl. my me-time.

i think i spoiled them too much.. so i think it’s just time to let them do it!
what say you?!
hopefully, i can! i’ll let you know of my progress.

now that’s a fact for my future.. i am capable of spoiling my future kids and my future husband..

ok i got this idea from The Joy Box , on her 100th entry she put there 100 things about her..

i am on my 125th entry now.. cool eh? so i thought of doing the same thing and this time  i’ll make it more challenging, 125 things about me! that’s a lot to share and probably by the end of it you’ll know me like a book!

Enjoy reading!

Hopefully you’ll have fun reading it as I had fun writing it.. wait until my 300th entry

1. I believe in God
2. I love my mum so much
3. and I miss her even more
4. I love my dad
5. and I love my brother
6. I am in love with my boyfriend
7. and will always be
8. I am forever grateful to my auntie H
9. and so to my uncle K
10. I love my sisters and brother too
11. and I adore my niece
12. I am a friend to many
13. and never an enemy to anyone (I think)
14. I can remember names and faces (pretty good)
15. I can remember conversation even from 10 years ago
16. I can speak 2 main languages,
17. 2 dialects
18. and broken Arabic, Japanese and Spanish
19. I can count in Spanish fluently
20. I love dancing (any type of dancing)
21. I am known as Chikee in Philippines
22. and as Sheryl in Australia
23. I am still thinking of a Muslim name to use.. not that easy I tell you
24. I am very emotional
25. in fact I cry a lot.. happy, sad I cry
26. I love singing but singing doesn’t love me
27. I can’t carry a tune at all
28. I love watching TV
29. and I can’t be disturbed when I am watching TV (especially when it’s Grey’s Anatomy)
30. I love to experiment on cooking and let everyone taste it
31. I hate ironing clothes !!
32. I clean a lot
33. and in fact I disinfect almost everything (floors, sinks, toilets, garbage, kitchen, door knobs) hehe
34. I am lazy at times (when PMSing)
35. I cook breakfast for everyone everyday
36. and I cook dinner almost everyday
37. I don’t cook lunch
38. I eat left overs
39. I am a vinegar chicken and sambal kangkong addict
40. Chocoholic
41. Ok, I am moody
42. especially when I am PMSing, I have the worst PMS symptoms.
43. I have high risk of any type of cancer
44. and I’ve been hospitalised 2x for kidney infection last year.
45. I feel fat even though I am not
46. and I do have a belly (believe it or not)..
47. considering I am a size 8 (AUS) or (size 6 in US)
48. I used to be size 6 (AUS) – (size 4 in US) –that was last year though
49. I was 45 kilos or 99 lbs (last year)
50. and now I am 55 kilos or 121 lbs
51. I love Clinique products
52. and I love facials and pedicures!
53. I just permed my eye lashes hehehehehe
54. I love trying on different make up style
55. but I don’t wear make up regularly
56. I love shopping!
57. I have 20 pairs of shoes (right now)
58. and I only use 5 of them
59. I love girly dresses
60. and I love dark denims
61. I don’t wear much jewellery
62. but I have a jewellery business (www.fifthavenuecollection.com/sarguelles)
63. I don’t like spiders
64. and I have a phobia of pointed objects.
65. I hate being woken up in an aggressive way..
66. and I hate people touching the sole of my foot.. I hate it!!!
67. I love to kiss and be kissed
68. I love cuddling
69. and I love holding hands.
70. I am a jealous girl.. (not too much, but I get jelous)
71. I still some insecurities!
72. I love birthdays!
73. I love throwing surprises on birthdays!
74. and I love being surprised on my birthday or any occasion
75. I love daisies and roses!
76. I worry a lot! Simple things, big things.. I worry a lot
77. sometimes I can’t help to think negatively
78. but I am working on it now.. not to think negatively
79. I am teaching myself to look forward to tomorrow
80. and making the most of my day everyday.
81. I am surrounded with wonderful people
82. and I am proud to be part of a great circle of friends
83. I love my job.
84. I am a Systems Support Analyst
85. I hated Systems Analysis when I was studying
86. and now I am a systems analyst
87. I worked as carrot packer (I pack carrots.. carrots that you buy from groceries stores)
88. I worked as a waitress and I loved that job
89. I worked as a door to door sales man and I hated that job
90. I worked as university tutor and I’ve learned so much about
91. and I’ve been in a call centre helpdesk and that helped me and my family for a good 1 year (financially speaking).
92. I want to get married one day
93. and have kids, lots of them
94. I want to have my own house
95. with an awesome kitchen
96. a big back yard for my kids
97. a pool for me and my husband
98. and a swing for my own
99. I won’t give up working :) though
100. I used to hold a grudge to people but not anymore
101. I have forgiven those who hurt me and my family
102. However, I still hate Teena..
103. I don’t plan as much as I did when I was young
104. but I am visualising what I want to achieve
105. I have goals
106. and I have aspirations.
107. I love taking long trips
108. and travelling overseas
109. I love swimming but
110. I am not a good swimmer..
111. I love taking picture and posing for pictures!
112. oh, I can’t lie.. I mean deliberately lie
113. I always get caught by saying the actual thing
114. so therefore I am the worst liar
115. so I a result, I don’t lie
116. and that always gets me in trouble
117. sometimes out of trouble
118. what you see is you get with me
119. I am easily pleased
120. and I clap when I laugh
121. I jump and clap when I am really happy
122. I love writing long emails
123. and I love reading long emails
124. I love writing that I have a Blog
125. I am grateful to everything that has happened to me, good or bad, I am happy to where I am now and wouldn’t change anything in the past. 

 Hope you had fun!

 

here we go again, forgiveness..

i thought i have forgiven her already but i guess not i know i am still working on it and i know for a fact that i am getting somewhere.

trully i don’t want to be a hating person. it’s not me you see. so i am trying my best to completely forgive her as well as him.

today when i watched Oprah i was “enlightened”. the show was about the “The Secret” (it will be in a different blog or you can visit Oprah.com about it)
i realised that i haven’t really achieved true forgiveness.

why or how did i know?

in my mind i know that i have forgiven them.. but in my heart.. well, let’s just say it’s still a work in progress.

“True forgiveness is achieve when you stop hoping that you can change the past”

pretty powerful isn’t it?

i know i haven’t achieved true forgiveness becuase:

- i still hope i could change the past.
- i am still wishing i did more to fight her and did less to hurt me.
- i am still wishing i should’ve said more to stand up for myself
- i still have this images in my head that i wish i said, did, didn’t say and didn’t do.

But now i know that i shouldn’t change anything in the past because i wouldn’t have what i have now that i am happy about if i changed the past.

i wouldn’t understand the true meaning love and happiness and now forgiveness.

living in the past and not letting go of the hate is a form of abuse to me, not to anyone but to me. I know how painful it was and here i am still remembering every detail of it and still wishing i can change it.

It’s not healthy and it’s not what i want to be and what i want to become.

I guess, to you out there, start letting go of any hate..

Once i achieve true forgiveness, i will tell you how it feels…

right now, i am half way there.

but i am grateful and happy of how things turned up..

i am business woman now!! well sort of..

i do have a new business, jewellery business.. fashion jewellery that is.. and the collection is Fifth Avenue Collection.

if you’re in Perth, you can book a party with me and i will come to your house and bring my collection.. of course you have to have your friends there.. what’s a party without guests?

else, you can visit my website and you can order online!!
Yes, online.. and i guarantee you that delivery won’t take long.. well depending on your location of course but i’ll do everything to send you the package as quick as possible.

If you have any questions about the jewellery, please feel free to email me on sheryl.arguelles@gmail.com

It’s fun to be a girl!!

please visit:

www.fifthavenuecollection.com/sarguelles

it’s an old song so i don’t know if you’ve heard it.. i am not that old but i grew up with these songs..

all weekend, this is the only song that keeps on playing in my head..
it’s not a last-song-syndrome because i haven’t heard it since i don’t know when.. but it’s just playing in my head.

well.. maybe because that’s all i think about “not giving up”

just days ago.. i thought of giving up.. forgive me but i felt running away..
then i realised that i am being too selfish, immature and coward..
and i don’t want to live in misery and sadness.. and trully i can’t live without him
you see, i didn’t give up before, why give up now?

true love doesn’t come easily..
they said once you’ve found it, take care of it, nurture it, fight for it and don’t ever let it go.

i can say i found true love..
some may not believe me.. but what i have now is far beyond great (Mashallah) and it is indeed True love (Mashallah)

and i am wiling to fight for it.
i won’t give up. i don’t want to put regret on anything.. if it doesn’t work out in the end, at least i’ve tried everything that i can

i’m plunging in.. 
this is my one true love we’re talking about.. and i’m going to fight for it.

 it’s not one way.. i know that..
fighting for it has to come from both sides..

but my side will be fighting for it no matter what..

and because of this.. i am going to start to have a plan..

i hope i won’t be fighting for it alone.

The NEW chikee show is back.. finally.. after some attempt to “beautify” it and some procrastination on the side… it is now finally back.

the only site which was on Blogger is no longer available.. even for me.. which is not that funny.. hehehe

so the new site is now with wordpress..
What’s new?

I guess it will be more organise in terms of categories and definitely i will try to cover almost everything and anything under the sun.

I will try to get some guest writer you know for additional info..

There will be magazine of the month, book of the month, movie of the month and fragrance of the month.

Events such as Sale here in Perth will be advertise as well.

Well.. i’ve so much in mind but i can’t put them altogether at once.. so baby steps..

RIght now it’s back for everyone’s pleasure!

New link –>  http://chikeeshow.wordpress.com   (Chikee SHow)

do you watch grey’s anatomy? there was line in one of the episodes where Meredith said “He’s got plans”.. of course that was referring to the Vet.. Mc Dreamy wouldn’t have that.. hehehe

you see in the story the Vet’s wife died and since then he stopped planning. he just tries to survive every single day and make the most out of it.
Although, when he met Meredith he sort of start having a plan.. and then became plans.. power of love eh..
i had a wonderful talk with my second dad last night.. i felt the deepest concern he’s got for me and i trully appreciate it.. i wanted to cry but my auntie was already crying…and besides new year’s resolution is try not to cry in front of someone.. hehehe

well, at first i felt i was being interrogated for a crime.. hehehe..
crime of love
serious questions about changes, plans and future
of course i answered them truthfully and honestly.. no bull..

i even used the Vet’s line to answer one of my uncle’s question
and surprisingly enough that’s how i exactly feel right now..

i told him “i don’t plan anymore”

you see 5 years from now is a very LOOOONG time.. like it’s a distant future. i can’t even think what or where i’ll be.. a lot can happen in between those times

i just try to survive each day from sunrise to sundown and think of the next day.. not two days ahead.. but just the next day.

you see i had so much plans before, for the future…
i gave up everything that i had back home for those plans..
i had to leave my friends, my special someone at that time, my family, my work just to come here and build a better future not for me but for the whole family.

and with just one incident everything changed.

it’s like my life has stepped on the breaks so bad that i had to leave skid marks for people to see.

and people are noticing everything that i do now or things that i decide to become. i guess that’s my skid marks.

i’ve been through a lot of changes lately, big ones, small ones, sad ones, happy ones…
it’s true change is inevitable..
but what you can do about it is look at the positive side of it..

now i believe that you shouldn’t deprive yourself of something/someone by worrying too much on the negative implications that it will bring.
sure everything has it pros and cons.. but would you hold yourself up from being happy because you’re scared of the cons? ish don’t think so.
life is too short, always chose the happy side..

but then of course you have to be cautious and smart..  it doesn’t mean that you give up, you leave, you runaway, you repel change

i realise now, life is not like that..
there shouldn’t be any room for resentment!

you have the choices, you have the power.. to make it better or to make it miserable.. it’s all up to you.

you see, mum told me to do whatever i want to do as long as i’m happy and i’m not hurting anyone and i am not taking anyone for granted

losing a mum would be one of the Biggest change you can ever go through and one of the hardest.. other changes are just a piece of cake.

if you’re in my place.. you’ll understand.
for now.. make the most out of your life..

plan if you want
prepare for the future if you could
embrace change positively if you can

  It’s time of the year again.. new hair in preparation for the new year.  looking at the picture above, i am kind of excited on how my new hair would look like.. at the same time i am nervous if it will suit me. I told my hairdresser to surprise me!

 oohhhh…. calling up the aliens! hehehe… she decided to put me under the magic powers of the heater..i was becoming more and more anxious…. see my smile?.. it’s all anxiety… can’t wait to see the finish product.. hhhmmmm…. will i be hot.. or smokin’ hot.. ha ha ha ha ha ha

  And the foils are off!! and i was like what?! blonde?!… then i told myself cool.. see my big smile? and see my hairdresser’s surprise look?! classic!!

 And voila!!! my new hair! (ignore my inappropriate but interesting background)…. i am blonde.. i mean.. light brown hair now.. for now at least. we’ll see what’s next.. i will let you know in 6 weeks

 Thanks Emma!