changes, plans, future

do you watch grey’s anatomy? there was line in one of the episodes where Meredith said “He’s got plans”.. of course that was referring to the Vet.. Mc Dreamy wouldn’t have that.. hehehe

you see in the story the Vet’s wife died and since then he stopped planning. he just tries to survive every single day and make the most out of it.
Although, when he met Meredith he sort of start having a plan.. and then became plans.. power of love eh..
i had a wonderful talk with my second dad last night.. i felt the deepest concern he’s got for me and i trully appreciate it.. i wanted to cry but my auntie was already crying…and besides new year’s resolution is try not to cry in front of someone.. hehehe

well, at first i felt i was being interrogated for a crime.. hehehe..
crime of love
serious questions about changes, plans and future
of course i answered them truthfully and honestly.. no bull..

i even used the Vet’s line to answer one of my uncle’s question
and surprisingly enough that’s how i exactly feel right now..

i told him “i don’t plan anymore”

you see 5 years from now is a very LOOOONG time.. like it’s a distant future. i can’t even think what or where i’ll be.. a lot can happen in between those times

i just try to survive each day from sunrise to sundown and think of the next day.. not two days ahead.. but just the next day.

you see i had so much plans before, for the future…
i gave up everything that i had back home for those plans..
i had to leave my friends, my special someone at that time, my family, my work just to come here and build a better future not for me but for the whole family.

and with just one incident everything changed.

it’s like my life has stepped on the breaks so bad that i had to leave skid marks for people to see.

and people are noticing everything that i do now or things that i decide to become. i guess that’s my skid marks.

i’ve been through a lot of changes lately, big ones, small ones, sad ones, happy ones…
it’s true change is inevitable..
but what you can do about it is look at the positive side of it..

now i believe that you shouldn’t deprive yourself of something/someone by worrying too much on the negative implications that it will bring.
sure everything has it pros and cons.. but would you hold yourself up from being happy because you’re scared of the cons? ish don’t think so.
life is too short, always chose the happy side..

but then of course you have to be cautious and smart..  it doesn’t mean that you give up, you leave, you runaway, you repel change

i realise now, life is not like that..
there shouldn’t be any room for resentment!

you have the choices, you have the power.. to make it better or to make it miserable.. it’s all up to you.

you see, mum told me to do whatever i want to do as long as i’m happy and i’m not hurting anyone and i am not taking anyone for granted

losing a mum would be one of the Biggest change you can ever go through and one of the hardest.. other changes are just a piece of cake.

if you’re in my place.. you’ll understand.
for now.. make the most out of your life..

plan if you want
prepare for the future if you could
embrace change positively if you can

~ by Sheryl on January 18, 2007.