make my wish come true

i have so many wishes in my list but i only want one thing… and that’s happiness.

i am in a place and time that i don’t even know what it means.

the happiness i thought it was before was all fake.. and i have to learn it the hard way. but why am i still hoping that it will go back to how it was?! because right now, i don’t know what happiness is.. that’s why i am holding on to what i knew was my happiness. then eventually (i hope) happiness will find me.

i am an honest person, what you see is what you get. i am emotional. you can see my emotions in my words, in my actions and in my thoughts.

you should be lucky if my thoughts are with you, it means that your feelings are considered. and i think about you and how you are gonna feel.

crying is not a sign of being emotional.. anyone can cry.. but only a few think about the other person’s feelings..

i live life to the fullest, i do whatever i want.. but i don’t hurt people to get what i want. i don’t lie to people to get what i want. i don’t use people to get what i want. 

now, i have a lot of things in my mind.. and i can’t process them all..

maybe i am still on denial. but definitely i am still in mourning, i am still grieving..

what they’ve done to me.. in normal books are unacceptable. but i chose to understand and just leave it to God. i am tired. really tired.

so on my just recently celebrated birthday, i made a wish.

please make my wish come true.

~ by Sheryl on July 13, 2006.